blown_upp

ho ho !

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 07:53:04 GMT

I like using bullets for journal entries because stories. In the past 3 days:

- Had threats put on my life and well being based on whether I break up with and discontinue all contact/communication with my ex
- Had all my personal belongings moved to 2 different cities
- Accused of beating/raping said ex based on bruising left from rough sex
- Was described as the scum of the earth with no value to anyone
- Accused of stealing/cheating/using/manipulating a number of people based on the heavily skewed prospective of the person putting threats towards me

No one probably knows me anymore, but the only thing that's changed on my end is my level of involvement with people and my outlook on life. Lets lie to people and manipulate others using someone you're mad at as a source of sporadically created problems!

To: My girlfriends cousin, most trusted person besides myself

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 10:19:56 GMT

"First of all, your mom invited me upstairs to ask you questions when she came downstairs where I was. Secondly, I really hope you feel better after taking probably the only "payment" from my old roommates towards bills that are long over due. Denying that you took it to anyone really won't do anything but make you look like a bigger douche bag for even taking it so obviously then turning around and acting for a SECOND like you didn't. Better yet is that you took money of your cousins along with a key to the apartment even more showing that anabolic steroids ruin not only your life, but the relationships that went along with it. I'm not here to write out a life lesson or cuss my head off in a little myspace letter, but I really just want to remind you that you didn't just fuck my shit up, but you deeply hurt some one that cared and trusted you so much that she cried when she heard what you did. I guess these days you really can't trust anyone. Who would think that after inviting you in to have a few beers, mixed drinks and then to sample something for free, you would decide they're someone worth fucking over? Unless you have $185 in your hand and a smile on your face (Bills owed for $370/2=$185), I don't want anything to do with you and I can probably speak for Michelle too when I say that. Also, Laurie enforces the ruling that you're no longer welcome in the apartment. Maybe you'll learn to look out for yourself before you go looking out for other people whom you don't seem to care all that much for."

...and nothing has changed

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 02:56:05 GMT

god damn fuck

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 15:45:11 GMT

So maybe about a week ago I lost my "NEVER KNOWS BEST" bracelet that came with the FLCL box set. It may not seem like much or anything significant and it may not have been, but now that it's gone my hand will go over where its been on my arm for the past 4-5 years and know something's missing.

I landed a job at a Subway in a Super Walmart in Cicero with my room mate and I just started to get some pretty good hours, in the 36 - 44 hour range. My manager there is really cool and laid back so the job's not hard by any means and is actually kind of relaxing when I can just sit back and listen to music.

A state trooper caught me going 85 in a 65 and I have another 30 days to remedy the situation.

I've been ending up in Massachusetts a lot as of late and couldn't be happier with that.

Being 30 miles from people I know is slowly killing me along with little time to spend with non-roommate acquaintances.

a,rauar,a

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 00:55:58 GMT

I have a new house and a kitten.

heh

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 01:52:18 GMT

I'm 19

I live in Oshkosh, WI

ACEN is comping up ohshi-

happy day right

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 12:32:49 GMT

The only person to wish me a Happy Valentines day was a 60 year old woman I checked out at work yesterday. Excellent.

2009

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 23:50:12 GMT

Don't look back.

Oh

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 23:16:04 GMT

I helped my dad put Christmas lights up on our house today.

This is a statement

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:46:57 GMT

I've found that it's true that unhappy people, on average, watch more TV than happy folk.

The current trend for this journal has been to just highlight things that are changing:

- I'm single again
- I'm working 38 hours a week now
- I've dropped my classes at OCC with no plan on returning soon
- My parents have decided I'm not "Stromski Household Material" and are making me move out at the end of January
- I smoke Djarum Specials (yah for fag fags)

Good work Chris, chase down those dreams!

ha

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 05:13:58 GMT

Life is really interesting right now. My parents have taken all use of the car from me including for work and school and I really have no way to either of which.

I lost my mind the other night to the extent that it was only myself on an infinite plane of understanding. The following day was mostly a xanax/acid delirium with lots of thinking and confusion. I ended up staying up for something like 50 hours before passing out on k/morphine around 5am. Waking up at 5pm thinking it's still the morning really throws you off if you're not expecting it.

Not sure how much more school I'll be involved with since I have no solid transportation there (~22 miles or so away) and other things going on are starting to over shadow it.

Whatever, another bridge and another hurdle; bring it on.

Yah

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 04:30:55 GMT

I'm going to be gone in different ways, at different times and for different periods of time.

Excellent.

I found this on the bus today

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 01:50:09 GMT

It took me 5 hours to get home today.

Back to School Again

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 04:17:52 GMT

School starts Tuesday and I only got my schedule a couple days ago.

My only way there is a 1-1.5hr bus ride as well as my only way back.

I've only been hanging out with the same 2 or 3 people for the past 3 weeks.

I really don't feel ready to start college. I haven't done anything as far as trying in school since some time in the fall. Like I already said, I'm really not prepared at all for school to start. I'll show up on the first day and probably be late to class with nothing the teacher wants because I don't know how to find out what I need and I don't even have an ID yet. I don't know how long this 3hr a day bus trip is going to last, but it better not be long.

I really wish I had some solid relationships with people to fall back on around here, but they just don't exist.

I guess I'll just trudge through it and hope things will work themselves out.

aaaaaa

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 13:27:43 GMT

Fuck everything!

aaa

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 03:26:41 GMT

evilpaperboy099: i'm glad we're alive
kenjiisgod: we left chicago, drove around indiana ghetto
kenjiisgod: in search of gas and liquor, then it was nothing until hamburgers at axems place
evilpaperboy099: hahaha
evilpaperboy099: same for me
evilpaperboy099: but i was sleeping :-/

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 02:41:09 GMT

Starting tomorrow I will be legitimately selling drugs and knives.

LJ Posting hurr

Sun, 25 May 2008 16:52:51 GMT

I haven't posted in 2 months oops.

Not really too much to post about besides being accepted to OCC (local community college) and having my classes already registered.

...ACEN was pretty sweet too.

Birthday

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 03:00:24 GMT

I'm 18 now.

I got: 2 blunts from Mary
1 7$ Cigar from Tim
1g of weed from Julia
2g blunt from Julia, Mary, Jarred
Cannon Digital Rebel XT from my parents (?!)
100$ in checks from my grandparents

I guess I'll go and do something totally righteous or something. For example, I've been up since 10am on the 27th and don't plan on going to bed soon and I'm drinking.

In other news, I switched my laptop over to Ubuntu 7.10 and am having quite the adventure trying to configure it.

Well

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 20:13:43 GMT

I turn 18 tomorrow.

I Don't Have A Home

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 12:11:42 GMT

I got kicked out of my house yesterday.

My dad came into my room, told my friend to leave and take me with him, told me to give him my keys and not to come back. This is after him telling me he's making me move out in 3 week.

Heh

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 05:51:16 GMT

Break sucked.

Tons of people wanted/said they would hang out with me at some point and never followed through.
I left my phone on a bus, so I'll never see it again (called the bus station twice).
Wanted to hang out with a couple people in particular that I haven't seen in a long time, but nothing came of that either.
I slept all day Wednesday, just to wake up at 5pm and find out that no one has messaged me or called for me.

Pretty disappointed with how well I wasted the first week with no swim practice.

At least I have some things that will keep me going for the mean time, be it legitimate or not.

Well now...

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 10:48:08 GMT

If you can't tell by the time posted, I've stayed up all night playing video games. I'm a pretty high achiever right now and can't really see anything else for me, besides my friends and playing games with them.

There's something about this new sleep schedule I'm about to try that feels really good. I want to be able to go to bed at 6pm and wake up at maybe 1am, then be able to do as I please all night. That way I don't waste time being awake when nothing good happens and sleeping when there's room for other things to happen.

It probably sounds really reckless and naive, but for me it's a needed change in pace and my next new adventure. These past two nights I've sneaked out at 1am to play Rock Band until 5am, then either sleeping until school, or sleeping THROUGH school. Besides myself, a few other good friends are moving to this schedule too, so now we get more time to relax and hang out.

Besides my new, unconventional sleep schedule, I've been in a inescapable rut of feeling generally bland to the world. Bland is probably a terrible way to describe it, but I haven't really had any strong feelings about anything, except for seemingly random days of depression. These days of depression are usually related to either my parents or lack of true companions (more later). They only last a day or two, but they hurt pretty bad. I'm usually stoic enough to make it through but that's only how it looks on the outside.

I'm doing bad in school.

Rock Band is fun with friends.

My shoulder needs surgery, so swimming has taken a backseat (still doing hard dry-land workouts, just can't do much in the water) D:

Girl situation is dismal at best. Guess I get to be everyone's friend 4eva!

I supposed I'm just an unsatisfied person. The one person to keep me sane through all this is leaving for Basic Training in the Air Force next month for 5 months. Not sure how I'll be after that, but It will probably involve me needing to try and change a lot.

However, I recently finished the anime Toppa Tengen Gurren-Lagann and I have to say it has changed me. Lame lame lame, but jesus christ, It was probably the most inspirational thing I've seen in so long. I needed it a lot. Besides the motivational part of it, the plot was incredibly thick, twisted and deep that it really made me think hard. It uses string theory a lot, so most of what happens in it is an incredibly plausible situation. Damn.

/me needs a hug

sick

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 05:50:24 GMT

Of everything happening around me.

Uhuh.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 05:20:12 GMT

1) Girl insits I do project with her for Economics
2) We put off said project untill a week before its due
3) Couple nights before it's due, I keep calling her trying to get in contact with her so that we can actually get it done and not fail the class.
4) She calls me the next day (day before it's due) and tells me that she's suspended and offers to work on it. I tell her no and that we'll just work on it that night.
5) She does the whole thing anyway.
6) *insert stupid drama created by her*
7) I get a voice mail today saying I'm not getting any credit for the project.

Said drama happened a couple of days ago where basically, she had been pretending to want to date her boyfriend, he begged me to let him know how she felt, I let him know, and suddenly the girl turns the situation around so that I'm trying to break them up. And she's mad at me.

I'm really annoyed about all of this. Good thing I have probably 3 days to do 5 weeks worth of work.