I like using bullets for journal entries because stories. In the past 3 days:

- Had threats put on my life and well being based on whether I break up with and discontinue all contact/communication with my ex
- Had all my personal belongings moved to 2 different cities
- Accused of beating/raping said ex based on bruising left from rough sex
- Was described as the scum of the earth with no value to anyone
- Accused of stealing/cheating/using/manipulating a number of people based on the heavily skewed prospective of the person putting threats towards me

No one probably knows me anymore, but the only thing that's changed on my end is my level of involvement with people and my outlook on life. Lets lie to people and manipulate others using someone you're mad at as a source of sporadically created problems!

"First of all, your mom invited me upstairs to ask you questions when she came downstairs where I was. Secondly, I really hope you feel better after taking probably the only "payment" from my old roommates towards bills that are long over due. Denying that you took it to anyone really won't do anything but make you look like a bigger douche bag for even taking it so obviously then turning around and acting for a SECOND like you didn't. Better yet is that you took money of your cousins along with a key to the apartment even more showing that anabolic steroids ruin not only your life, but the relationships that went along with it. I'm not here to write out a life lesson or cuss my head off in a little myspace letter, but I really just want to remind you that you didn't just fuck my shit up, but you deeply hurt some one that cared and trusted you so much that she cried when she heard what you did. I guess these days you really can't trust anyone. Who would think that after inviting you in to have a few beers, mixed drinks and then to sample something for free, you would decide they're someone worth fucking over? Unless you have $185 in your hand and a smile on your face (Bills owed for $370/2=$185), I don't want anything to do with you and I can probably speak for Michelle too when I say that. Also, Laurie enforces the ruling that you're no longer welcome in the apartment. Maybe you'll learn to look out for yourself before you go looking out for other people whom you don't seem to care all that much for."

So maybe about a week ago I lost my "NEVER KNOWS BEST" bracelet that came with the FLCL box set. It may not seem like much or anything significant and it may not have been, but now that it's gone my hand will go over where its been on my arm for the past 4-5 years and know something's missing.

I landed a job at a Subway in a Super Walmart in Cicero with my room mate and I just started to get some pretty good hours, in the 36 - 44 hour range. My manager there is really cool and laid back so the job's not hard by any means and is actually kind of relaxing when I can just sit back and listen to music.

A state trooper caught me going 85 in a 65 and I have another 30 days to remedy the situation.

I've been ending up in Massachusetts a lot as of late and couldn't be happier with that.



Being 30 miles from people I know is slowly killing me along with little time to spend with non-roommate acquaintances.

I have a new house and a kitten.

I'm 19

I live in Oshkosh, WI

ACEN is comping up ohshi-

The only person to wish me a Happy Valentines day was a 60 year old woman I checked out at work yesterday. Excellent.

Don't look back.

I helped my dad put Christmas lights up on our house today.

I've found that it's true that unhappy people, on average, watch more TV than happy folk.

The current trend for this journal has been to just highlight things that are changing:

- I'm single again
- I'm working 38 hours a week now
- I've dropped my classes at OCC with no plan on returning soon
- My parents have decided I'm not "Stromski Household Material" and are making me move out at the end of January
- I smoke Djarum Specials (yah for fag fags)

Good work Chris, chase down those dreams!

Life is really interesting right now. My parents have taken all use of the car from me including for work and school and I really have no way to either of which.

I lost my mind the other night to the extent that it was only myself on an infinite plane of understanding. The following day was mostly a xanax/acid delirium with lots of thinking and confusion. I ended up staying up for something like 50 hours before passing out on k/morphine around 5am. Waking up at 5pm thinking it's still the morning really throws you off if you're not expecting it.

Not sure how much more school I'll be involved with since I have no solid transportation there (~22 miles or so away) and other things going on are starting to over shadow it.

Whatever, another bridge and another hurdle; bring it on.

I'm going to be gone in different ways, at different times and for different periods of time.

Excellent.

It took me 5 hours to get home today.

School starts Tuesday and I only got my schedule a couple days ago.

My only way there is a 1-1.5hr bus ride as well as my only way back.

I've only been hanging out with the same 2 or 3 people for the past 3 weeks.

I really don't feel ready to start college. I haven't done anything as far as trying in school since some time in the fall. Like I already said, I'm really not prepared at all for school to start. I'll show up on the first day and probably be late to class with nothing the teacher wants because I don't know how to find out what I need and I don't even have an ID yet. I don't know how long this 3hr a day bus trip is going to last, but it better not be long.

I really wish I had some solid relationships with people to fall back on around here, but they just don't exist.

I guess I'll just trudge through it and hope things will work themselves out.

Fuck everything!

evilpaperboy099: i'm glad we're alive
kenjiisgod: we left chicago, drove around indiana ghetto
kenjiisgod: in search of gas and liquor, then it was nothing until hamburgers at axems place
evilpaperboy099: hahaha
evilpaperboy099: same for me
evilpaperboy099: but i was sleeping :-/

Starting tomorrow I will be legitimately selling drugs and knives.

I haven't posted in 2 months oops.

Not really too much to post about besides being accepted to OCC (local community college) and having my classes already registered.

...ACEN was pretty sweet too.

I'm 18 now.

I got: 2 blunts from Mary
1 7$ Cigar from Tim
1g of weed from Julia
2g blunt from Julia, Mary, Jarred
Cannon Digital Rebel XT from my parents (?!)
100$ in checks from my grandparents

I guess I'll go and do something totally righteous or something. For example, I've been up since 10am on the 27th and don't plan on going to bed soon and I'm drinking.


In other news, I switched my laptop over to Ubuntu 7.10 and am having quite the adventure trying to configure it.

I turn 18 tomorrow.